Red Farm

One of the top ten food experiences I've had in New York City in the last ten years. Plan to wait 90 minutes. Maybe even four hours. It's all worth it.

Red Farm
529 Hudson

Employed

 I got the job. I start tomorrow. It's basically retail with the opportunity to also trail on production. Everyone in this business has to do retail, and with such a small store, even the people in production do it. Can I do it? I have so much fear. I have fear that I will be fired. I really don't like making mistakes. And I feel less than when I do. Because I feel like all my life I've been behind. I've been told that I was less than and the bad stuff is easier to believe, so I've believed it. I'm almost over the fact that my career, or lack there of, isn't where it should be. What is should? I don't know anymore. But if being unemployed for so long gave me anything, it gave me the peace of mind to know that I am not on the same path as everyone else. And the pride that I had, that got in my way, that told me I deserve more... its humbled me. I have to work for it. Maybe a little harder than some... and maybe this is obvious to most. But I've never been given a break when it comes to my career. And so back when I was twenty-four, five, and even thirty, I was bitter about it. Everyone is really happy for me and that feels great, but this I don't know what it will turn into. It could turn into a real career. I could get my food handler's certificate and make more money. That would be the next step before I even thought about school. But at least there is a next step. I just worry, because I worry so much, what if this doesn't work out? But as I sat on my window and looked out into New York City, I thought it will work out. I will be a rock star at this. I got this weird surge of confidence and it feels great. I need this to be great. I need a great thing in my life. We all do, and if you're reading this, I hope you have a great thing too.

2nd Interview

I had dreams of working in pastry. Remember those dreams? Remember having dreams? Goals? Ambitions? I was still employed at this time. I knew I needed a change. Pastry is not an easy business. Did I have what it takes? I was afraid. And I decided to sit on those thoughts. And now here I sit, still looking for employment, I decided to apply to my favorite bakery. It's near my house. It would allow me to see what it is like to actually be in this business, before spending so much time and money. And a month after I applied, I got called in for an interview. And it went well. I got a second interview. This time I had to trail (aka work) for one hour. And I really did. I got about a 10 minute course in daily operation and then they put me in front of the customers. That was jarring at first. I made a few mistakes. I was friendly to everyone ( I really was! ) and I said thank you to everyone before I left. My mom said they were probably looking more at how one reacts to the customers and staff than if they made a mistake at the cash register. I felt like if I was hired after about three days I wouldn't have a problem. But what was the job? I still don't know. They said they'd talk about specifics after. The person that was suppose to be at my second interview wasn't there. I do know that more than two jobs are opening up. But what is the schedule? What is the pay? These are just a few of the questions any person would like to know. And especially after a second interview, so I sit and wait to hear back.

Maybe I won't get this job. At this point in my life, eighteen months later, I believe it will be what it will be. I have no answers and I'm okay with that. Life is okay. It has to be :)

Spring Fashion

 John Varvatos shirt. Pale pink with white stripe going down the front.

 Marc Jacobs pants. The leg makes the pant :)

Levi's stretchy skinny jean. Pop of color!

 Marc Jacobs.

Marc Jacobs. So soft!

Photo of the Day

Best Granola Bar

In an attempt to get healthier at the end of last year (because pie isn't good for you :) )... I had to look for healthier snacks.

I think I've tried every granola/protein bar there is. Some are good, some are not. But the good ones usually are high in sugar.

Sugar is the enemy.

But, I think I can safely say this is my favorite granola bar. Please try it and let me know what you think! Or better yet.. write what your favorite healthy snack is.

Four and Twenty Blackbirds

The best pie I've ever had.

4 and 20 Blackbirds
439 3rd Ave
Brooklyn