i don't know.

So, like in Mark's post below...I am also a loner. I don't like people much, they can be rather annoying. So I live a solitary life, mainly seeking refuge in TV shows and Movies. Everything is always better in the movies! The romance, the friendships, the jobs.

Sometimes I feel like I want to be in a relationship and get married and have kids. It seems like the normal thing. But I really think about it and I am selfish in I like to do what I want to do when I want to do it. Being in a relationship requires some if not a lot of bending towards what the other wants to do.

And what if I change? If I change myself into being that person everyone wants me to be, and who I would like to be what will happen to my current life? Will I lose the friends I have?

I just have no idea what I want to be or who exactly I am. It saddens me but I don't know how to find out who I am. I have been told numerous times by my brother as we grew up that I was a loser. You know if someone tells you something over and over again, you begin to believe it.

AH LIFE!