Who Am I?

Who in the world am I? Do you know? Most of the time I spend at work or at home, I ask my self that question and I have no idea the answer. What do I like/dislike? So here is my list of likes/dislikes.

LIKES
* Movies
* (500) Days of Summer
* Moulin Rouge
* Alice in Wonderland (Tim Burton)
* Harry Potter movies
* TV Shows
* LOST
* 24
* Chuck
* Damages
* Parenthood
* The Middle
* Theatre
* Music
* Celine Dion
* Aerosmith
* Barenaked Ladies
* Black Eyed Peas
* Working with my drama kids
* Traveling

DISLIKES
* WORK
* People who don't use correct grammar / spelling
* Chunky tomato sauce on either pizza or pasta
* People who drive stupidly
* The sound of people chewing their food or gulping their drink
* People in general
* Not being paid attention to

So that last dislike...not being paid attention to - sometimes I want to just scream to everyone to PAY ATTENTION TO ME! Which is a weird thought because people do pay attention to me (mostly) but it's this general feeling of being in the background during most situations and nobody really noticing that I'm there or even exist. And if I left, they wouldn't notice. I know that can be mostly my fault as I am very quiet and barely say anything. It's hard for me. I don't know why. Words in spoken form do not come easy to me. I wish I could be more verbal and outspoken but I just feel that I don't have anything of real substance to contribute. Who really wants to hear my thoughts and opinions? Or for that matter, are my thoughts and opinions really mine, or are they me using others thoughts and opinions as my own for I can't seem to really think about what I think of the subject?

Life is one big rollercoaster that I don't want to go on. I'm too scared and frightened. Not exactly OF the rollercoaster, but of the unknown, in every situation.

What I would really love to do is spend a year traveling Europe to find myself. I know that sounds awfully cliche but it's true. As BNL says 'if I had a million dollars'... So I guess I will just continue on this path and see where it takes me. Hopefully it will lead somewhere fun and exciting instead of this dull and mundane life I'm leading now.

SEATTLE in one week. Need this so much.
Ta ta for now.
Lindsay