Lindsay Is Death

Lindsay has the sniffles! She even took the day off work. Send her your get well wishes here!

Ireland. Oh yeah!

So it's a definite...no more hoping and dreaming, it's happening. September 17-25th! Ireland. I am SO excited. Mark and I are going and we're going to have fun. This will be the first time I'm in a different country without family members. I'm most afraid of driving on the opposite side of the road, scary!

Originally we were going to go for 10 days but Mark couldn't take a lot of time out of work. I'm most excited about going to the Cliffs of Moher...they are GORGEOUS. I've heard so many things about how amazing they are and have seen pictures that will take your breath away. Hopefully we don't fall off.

Oh man. I wish it was time to go there!

Ireland

It's happening.
Sept 17-25

Mark and Lindsay in Ireland.

We've never been. And Lindsay's been everywhere (ask her about her time in that Brothel in Harlem).

Where is Lindsay? She's obsessed with Tumblr. And she just doesn't care about her readers. We have readers, right?

If Julie Powell can have readers. Why can't we? What would you like us to write about?

i don't know.

So, like in Mark's post below...I am also a loner. I don't like people much, they can be rather annoying. So I live a solitary life, mainly seeking refuge in TV shows and Movies. Everything is always better in the movies! The romance, the friendships, the jobs.

Sometimes I feel like I want to be in a relationship and get married and have kids. It seems like the normal thing. But I really think about it and I am selfish in I like to do what I want to do when I want to do it. Being in a relationship requires some if not a lot of bending towards what the other wants to do.

And what if I change? If I change myself into being that person everyone wants me to be, and who I would like to be what will happen to my current life? Will I lose the friends I have?

I just have no idea what I want to be or who exactly I am. It saddens me but I don't know how to find out who I am. I have been told numerous times by my brother as we grew up that I was a loser. You know if someone tells you something over and over again, you begin to believe it.

AH LIFE!

A Loner

I was (and am) a loner. I probably always be.

I think I'm way too introspective most of the time.

I probably spend too much time looking back, but I'll be 30 in a few months. Whatever that means. And I remember being 22 and arriving in New York City. I knew nobody, but I had just graduated and I was going to be a writer. It was exciting. I grew up in a small town and went to a small college.

I've had a blessed life (hardships like anyone), so I always feel like such a bad person when I admit that I'm unhappy or stuck. I know every minute is a chance to turn it all around. But making a living as writer hasn't been easy ( I write screenplays ) and even though I have the means to try it all (which makes any complaints infuriating to some I'm sure) it isn't that easy.

Okay, it's not suppose to be. But I bit the bullet. I got a desk job 2.5 years ago. I have health insurance. And I'm unhappy. And I want to just quit (I could), but what would I do next? Maybe I have to quit to figure it out (because who isn't just so tired at the end of a nine hour work day?).

I never saw myself as much. Certainly not as fearless, but I look back at the person I was when I was 22 and I think, maybe I was fearless. I look back at 26, when I could finally say that I was gay and think, maybe I was fearless?

I'm not a slut. I don't want to be (well sometimes). Some say I'm good looking (but many don't). I don't have the social skills or the expectations that you need to be somebody that someone wants. I have gotten better at it all, but I wonder. I wonder if I'm meant to be alone. This makes me sad. I've been alone my whole life.

I fell in love (look at a blog from May to read about that). I'm stronger because of it. It wasn't the traditional kind of love, but was real (more then just infatuation or lust). I think I always knew I had an attraction to this person, but I always thought I was in control of it. It wasn't until I could admit to this person that I was in love with him that I gained some control back. It amazed me how far down the rabbit hole I fell without ever realizing it. I think because I've always been in control. That's one thing I could always say. To climb back out of that hole hasn't always been easy, but I'm getting there.

And my point is? I need a break. I'm tired. I'm tired of wishing. I'm tired of the guilt I feel about my feelings. I'm worried about the possibility of maybe being fearless, and having lost that.

How do I get that back?

Ally McBeal: The Complete Series

You can own this now!

It is iconic. It is groundbreaking. It is my favorite tv series of all time.

Frankie Says Relax!

Frankie Says RELAX!

It was a shirt Ross gave Rachel when they were dating. She loves it. They broke up. He wants it back. She's mad. But their on a break!

But after ten seasons they wind up together (and with a baby). Why? Because their each others "lobsters."

I rewatched "Friends" just like Lindsay. I own seasons 1-6 plus 8. For me season 7 is a disappointment (save for a terrific Winona Ryder). And season 9 and 10 were a bust (but who would turn down $1M an episode?). And okay, Christina Applegate was really funny in her Emmy winning performance.

Lisa Kudrow was by far the best actor of the bunch (I LOVED THE COMEBACK!). And not just because Phoebe was my favorite character.

Courteney Cox was the worst actor. And not just because Monica was my least favorite character (Oh, Cougar Town is so very lame).

My favorite reoccuring character had to be Janice. Why doesn't Maggie Wheeler get more acting gigs?

The clothing is terrible until season four (aka 1997). They all finally look somewhat normal (save Matthew Perry as Chandler from time to time).

All in all - I enjoyed it. I still like the show.

Season 5 was their strongest season.

And if anyone wants to know how Jennifer Aniston became the movie star out of the cast just watch season 8. She won that Emmy for a reason. She anchored the show. She gave funny, nuanced performances every week. Everyone else took a back seat.


Favorite episodes (in no particular order)
The One With the Candy Hearts (Season 1)
The One With All the Poker (Season 1)
The One With Ross' New Girlfriend (Season 2)
The One With the Prom Video (Season 2)
The One Where No One's Ready (Season 3)
The One With All the Football (Season 3)
The One With The Embryos (Season 4)
The One Where Ross Gets Married (Season 4)
The One Hundredth (Season 5)
The One With All the Thanksgivings (Season 5)
The One Where Everyone Finds Out (Season 5)
The One Where Ross Got High (Season 6)
The One With Unagi (Season 6)
The One With Rachel's Big Kiss (Season 7)
The One With the Videotape (Season 8)
The One With the Rumor (Season 8)
The One With Rachel's Other Sister (Season 9)
The One Where the Stripper Cries (Season 10)